Dec 17, 2014 About 2 years ago when I was homeless I had a lot of thoughts. Even considered calling the suicide hotline. I never would of imagined Id consider it so its easy to see how people get to the point and actually do it. If things didnt change who knows how close I was.
Dec 17, 2014 I've experienced a loss like this too when I was younger; around 19-21 with a close friend similar to your situation. It took a long time for me to be ok with allowing myself to let anyone get near me enough to explore friendship again. At 28 I finally feel like I found someone who I can connect with on GREATER levels and have a relationship that's based in happiness and not so much in depression. Take time to love yourself and find out who you are and who you want to be and I can promise that you'll find that friend or love that you deserve.
Dec 17, 2014 There's been times where I've wanted to not be alive, but I could never be selfish enough to take my own life. I've dealt with depression and a generalized anxiety disorder on and off for the past 9 years of my life. Post-traumatic stress disorder for the past 4.
Dec 17, 2014 Never thought about it. I've had family members do it. My mom has tried twice but both times failed. My dad came home early from work and my little brother found her cause he skipped school and she was supposed to be going to work. I seen what it does to people around you and f--- that. Not about to abandon my family. Suicide doesn't solve anything. Just shows cowardliness imo and leaves people around you who do care with the burden. I get people have depression and everyone deals with s--- a different manner. I respect that, just giving my feelings on it.
Dec 17, 2014 I guess especially when my ex left me this time last year and when I was stressed the f--- out in college at some points I felt there was like no point to life. I dont know if I had an urge to commit suicide but I definitely didn't value my life at some points, I I was definitely on that "f--- life" s---. I always knew I'd get past it though even if I didn't know how or when.
Dec 17, 2014 I understand this perspective and it's not entirely wrong but nor is it necessarily right. I agree it's selfish but i think it's just as selfish for the family members to want someone to go through unbearable emotional pain. I haven't been to that point myself but i know how bad it gets for some people. Just as there is a spectrum for how bad depression gets, there is also one for feeling suicidal. For instance, i know of a woman (never met her) who set herself on fire at a petrol station.... if someone is willing to burn themselves alive to get off the planet then that speaks to how bad they're feeling. A lot of people think it has to be either/or on this debate but i don't think it does (in regards to who's selfish). both sides in regards to who is selfish are valid and it depends on circumstances with each individual case. Then you throw severe mental illness into the debate but that's a whole other thing. Also, in regards to it making you a coward, you also have to be very strong minded to actually go through with it. Otherwise, it wouldn't be the minority who put it into action.
Feb 10, 2018 Yeah, more often than not. I hate life. I hate myself. I don’t want to exist. Have for years now.
Feb 10, 2018 Yea but then the next good show/video game/car comes out and I forget about it for a bit
Feb 10, 2018 I suggest everyone who tries to k--- themselves to listen to Eminem's new album Revival, it will save their lives. Amazing album.
