Aug 15, 2017

i'm oblivious as s---

hot friend just came out on facebook, and it kind of took me by surprise... we used to hang all the time, and i never picked up on that at all... which makes me feel really stupid w/ guys now in retrospect

i always wondered why in the h--- he ever wanted to hang out with me after the first time we met and did (we have like nothing in common except liking to get s--- faced and laugh about stupid s--- for a couple hours), or why he continued to hang out with me up until i moved (despite me never bothering to initiate contact with him first, literally ever), and why he was so adamant about me moving in with him (free of charge) whenever i complained about my s--- apartment and why he tried to insist upon it once I was actually moving 2+ hours away, and why after the fact (with me never bothering to talk to him after moving) he randomly wanted to hang out cause he hadn't seen me in awhile and drove the 2+ hours to meet me and hangout for literally 30 minutes on a whim.

like our friendship just always sort of felt... off, for some reason. the only reason i really liked to hangout with him was he was nice to look at and was really nice to me in general, other than that he felt waaaaay too clingy as a friend and i never picked up on why till just now

sort of explains numerous things like his relationships and how they went, and some other s--- he's told me or joked about constantly, and also one other thing (but he was drunk and 'asleep' so i never counted that)

i hate myself lmao, this ain't even the first time and probably won't be the last

 

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but yeah i cant rly give advice best I can say is that if you were straight i would say "dw man plenty more fish in the sea"
but some gay fish are still in the closet, so it looks like there is less, but there's still heaps remember that and the gay fish will come out the closet in hordes in say 5 ish years when nobody cares anymore

 

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