Death Anniversaries...

Started by Nelly05, Sep 23, 2018, in Life Add to Reading List

  1. Nelly05
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    Nelly05 Ƭ̵̬̊

    Sep 23, 2018
    it just occurred to me that it will be a year since my sister died next month. I’m sure I always knew this was coming up and it kinda explains some weird things I’ve been doing lately. Kinda freaking me out, actually. I’m realizing I don’t cry over her anymore. I used to cry a lot. I feel numb or something I don’t know. I’m not worried I guess. On medication for the depression and anxiety thing so it’s not like I’m gonna spaz out again. But shouldn’t I be more upset? Like, expressing the loss? I’m not gonna snap suddenly and f--- up, will I? Do people throw parties or...? Do you just sleep through it? Are there cakes for this? Am I supposed to keep count? Does anything matter if we all die and just I don’t know. I feel like I forgot. It’s only been a year. Not even a year and they don’t care. What’s the point.
     
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  2. 2pfl
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    Sep 24, 2018
    The pain never goes away you just learn to deal with it. I’m coming up on two years this week that I lost my newborn baby girl. People deal with pain in their own ways, I smoke and drink daily.
     
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  3. Nelly05
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    Nelly05 Ƭ̵̬̊

    Sep 24, 2018
    So...is it okay to try to forget them? Is it wrong to think like that? This was a person, but it just seems like I lost an earring and I was mad for a while and then just...kinda got over it. I didn’t know death was similar to that. It’s kind of jarring. You can forget people like...earrings or something. Sorry guys, I’m just. Ugh. So f---ing cringe I can’t even type.
     
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    Sep 24, 2018
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