Dec 14, 2014 I'm glad you're healthier now than you were this summer. A family friend just offed himself last Saturday, s--- is pretty serious man. Take care of yourself if you ever fall back in that space.
Dec 14, 2014 750,000 people attempt suicide each year in the US. Exponentially more consider it. Despite the stigma, I'd still like to discuss it. My sister killed herself her freshman year of high school. I don't think it's the right answer. Can we please not spam a serious thread? I can't even see Robots posts because he's on my ignore list. You should try it. @theg I'm young and naive, but I really don't think I'll ever connect with anybody like her again. We just operated on the same wavelength. I got her over cutting and she got me over my depression. We were both unsure of our futures and could take solace that somebody else felt the same way. I trusted her with things I would never tell another person. It was a bond that will impact me for the rest of my life. @reservoirGod
Dec 14, 2014 SL ban? i kid i kid But I've been in a similar position. Moving during the summer after 10th grade. Went from a small town in new york (90 kids at, most, in our grade) to a school in jersey with like 1,000 per grade. Spent like an entire year living day to day, going 6+ hours without speaking a single word, etc. The complete opposite of how I was before the move. The best advice I got was also kind of condescending, but sometimes thats the kind of wake up call you need. It was, like, understanding advice from a friend, but the bottom line was to take a minute to "zoom out" of your own body/perspective for a moment - and consider the world at large. The kind of true desperations millions have to deal with daily, etc (now this might lead to another existential crisis, lol, but I was like 16/17 and it was enough to make me feel less sorry for myself) But when it comes to real depression, it's not possible to just stop feeling "sorry" for yourself. And although at first it was just a case of being down in the dumps over changing the entire trajectory of my high school experience, the isolation after the move tipped it over into something more. And that took time, a lot of it, to overcome. And i think that was mainly because I tried to go through it alone. People help man. No matter how much of a loner you prefer to be, especially once you fall victim to depression and that feeling just amplifies, surrounding yourself with the right vibes is essential.
Dec 14, 2014 I cleaned up the thread a bit and moved some of the posts to the General Chat Thread. Topic hits home right now given that I know someone who offed himself 8 days ago, so lets keep this thread respectful if possible.
Dec 14, 2014 In all seriousness, I never wanted too, there were times when I hated myself for the things I did, but never really thought of committing suicide.
Dec 14, 2014 I've never understood this logic... maybe that applies to some people but not everyone. It's a stereotype about depression i've never really understood. I've dealt with depression (to the point where i thought about killing myself). I didn't really feel sorry for myself though.... was just tired of life and the world. I grew up in foster care and had been in 20+ homes but i didn't put too much thought into it. Was all i knew so i didn't feel all that "different" because of it. I just felt how i felt and felt that there was no point continuing with life. Doing so much better now though.... i'm really going about my path in a positive way and trying to focus on the 24 hours in front of me.... things are starting to fall into place for me. It's really exciting and liberating.
Dec 14, 2014 ahh my bad man it was a typo. If you read the post, it was building up to me saying that for me, at first, it was feeling sorry about myself (because i could pinpoint the cause of my sadness: moving). so my friends advice about, basically, how much worse life could be, helped a bit. i was building up to say that for real depression, you can't just "pick yourself up." i agree with you. actual depression stems from a variety of triggers and manifests itself in countless ways.
Dec 14, 2014 The friends you make between 5-14 are going to be the most important friends of your life. Because of your life development.... But you won't actually meet your best friends that you will keep your whole life until you're in your mid 20s.
Dec 17, 2014 Can't imagine how bad you must feel if you actually want to end your life.. I felt s-----y at times (parents divorce when I was young, broke up with my gf, lost family members) but I never felt like that. I guess if many horrible things happen at the same time it's more likely that people get pushed to that point. I did meet a girl a few years ago (she had a short relationship with one of my friends) who said to me she wanted to k--- herself bc everything in her life was bad (school, family, friends, relationships) but she didn't actually do it. She decided to stop eating (many thought it was just for attention, could have been) but eventually she passed out at a party (drinking and no eating), went to the hospital and she told everybody about it after that, including her parents. She went to get help and a year or so later she was fine again.
Dec 17, 2014 I visited a friend of mine one day and he was just hanging there, called an ambulance but was obviously too late, that image spooked around in my head for a long time, and still does, I didn't even know why he did it, no note, no nothing, That was pretty f----- up, still got contact with his parents tho, if you see what damage that does, then no.. never will
Dec 17, 2014 Did have the thought. I lost my Daughter, and my life has never been the same. Seeing parents with their children f---ing hurts. I can remember walking to her grave thinking "There's no way I want to wait till I'm 80. I'm honestly fine with dying that way I can be with my Daughter." I've never done anything, mainly because I know the effect it would have on my family and I know for a fact it isn't what my Daughter would want. So I've turned the negative into a positive in honouring her memory anyway I can.
